Last year of my 20s!

20180318_183124-1I tried to add images of the mountains and the town/city of Asheville, but I am so technology deficient. The images are not loading. May be can try later again. Anyway, I am so blessed to get to live life another year! I planned to do lots of hiking on my bday. I had read that Asheville was a top solo travel spot and has lots of trails in the Blue ridge mountains. I did not grt to do those trails sadly. Its ok. I have traveled so much, but for the 1st time in my life, I did not enjoy this trip as much. I did enjoy downtown and this garden area I checked out. NC Arberatum..can never pronounce or spell that! I like the hippie vibe and veg friendly places. I eat so much. It got so hot, but mountain breeze felt good. I could have chilled in a pool had I not firgotten my bathing suit! I always forget it. Well I do not know why I even took it to Montreal when it was cold and chilly. I cannot believe I travel so much and have become so adventurous in last decade. I surprise myself. Sometimes, I am shy girl in the corner not making eye contact with anyone in my own little world. Sometimes, I am chatting up a storm with strangers who feel like family. It is all mood dependent.. and caffiene dependent. I used to be so shy and homebody. I climbed trees as a kid, but was not outgoing at all. Traving in the last 8 years or so made me so outgoing and less shy. I am still an introvert who enjoys her own company, and needs time alone. I leave loud noises and too many people to go sit alone under a tree or go through pictures on my phone. Nursing also made me more outgoing. I know how to connect with patients well. I enjoy it. At the same time, I can be so socially awkward. I am not always able to go up to people and say hi. That shy little girl in me comes out from time to time. I may be outgoing, but still am an introvert. An outgoing introvert, with hints of shyness that pops up in some situations. I used to always hate the shy part of my personality. People would tell me we won’t bite you, you can talk. Now, I am accepting of all shades of my personality. I am never the loudest in the room. I shy away from attention. I like to write and reflect. I journal and blog. As a new 29 year old female, I love myself for who I am. I am proud of my self growth journey and am patient with myself. I used to always put others 1st. As a nurse, daughter, and friend. I burnt out. I learned self care. I treat myself to trips, food, rest days, naps, and jamming to 80s and 90s pop and hip hop. Aint no shame in that. You can dance, having the time of your see that girl.. singing the dancing queen. I love retro. I love meeting young girls and encouraging them to be who they want to be. Not what society says, but what their heart says. I am so thankful for the opportunities that I was given, but mostly worked crazy hard for. I am so happy and grateful for all the amazing relationships with friends and family in my life. It is so easy to complain and forget the good things. I choose to see the positive in others. I choose to forgive and not hold grudges. I choose peace. I choose to live life to the fullest. I had always wanted to visit Asheville, and I made it happen. I had always wanted to visit Montreal, which I went to a month ago. I choose to work hard and make things happen. Life is a gift. God is kind. All the bad experiences and trauma I have been through have given me new insight on life and taught me tolerance and preserverence. I am eternally grateful to the universe for giving me a chance at life when so many babies die in utero at conception as an embryo, or in childhood. I have seen so many people lose their lives or live with horrific diseases. I am blessed to be healthy and try to be fit. Being 29 means I have white hair now, but I also have years of wisdom. I call the white strands wise highlights. That does not change the inner child in me. I love blasting a whole new world and let it go! I love playing with and caring for kids! It makes me so happy.. here is to another year to live. I cannot say thank you enough to God. I am blessed. Everything is always working out best case scenario for me thanks to God and my faith. Stay smiling and never give up on your dreams. I dream to be a NP in pediatric primary care or primarily practice serving peds in family med. I am thankful for my job though. I get to see some kids and I love those encounters! Always find the positive in life. There are always multiple choices, and the best answer is your intuition. Tomorow is a gift. Go after what you want, withour fear or inhibition. Choose positivity.

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